I really love giving gifts to other people. I love, love, love picking out the perfect little something for the right person. To brighten someone’s day and see their face when they first get a peek at the present is THE BEST feeling. Christmas trees that are surrounded by wrapped packages that are spilling out are just the most beautiful thing. Right up there with my own newborn babies and cat videos or something.
Gift giving is both my strength and my weakness though. I am also really horrible at waiting to give them. Almost as soon as I sign my credit card receipt I want to hand the bag over to the recipient. That part makes me all warm and fuzzy inside, which are the only feelings I’m willing to tolerate these days. It’s so hard not to tell someone what I got them before it’s time to do it. I have to stop myself from blurting out my big secret every time I talk to them. It makes me so anxious. It’s like, physically painful not to just yell “ZZZZZOMG, I got you XYZ and you’re gonnnnnna love it!” ::sigh::
Being generous can be torture sometimes.
I did not grow up in a house where we opened gifts early. I had friends who would open their Christmas gifts on Christmas Eve rather than on Christmas Day. I remember feeling so jealous of them! That’s so not fair. I could never convince my parents that I was mostly just wanting to give them my gifts than open my own. I guess all 12 year olds are not as selfless as I was. I don’t know why my parents didn’t believe me. Imagine that.
As a parent now, I mean, I totally get waiting until Christmas Day because of the whole Santa thing. Santa doesn’t break the rules. Now that my kids are getting older it is harder to keep their presents hidden and a secret. It would have been a lot easier to just hand over Barbie’s dream house when the UPS guy dropped it off this week than stuffing it in the back of my closet. Leah would have lost her shit completely. And me, too, because I just can’t wait to make that little girl’s day on Christmas morning. I really feel like I have knocked it out of the park so far this year on the gifts. Each one is personal and perfect for each individual on my list. Brian and I (and Santa, cause “wink wink”) are gonna make it rain wrapping paper up in here!
I have a pretty small family. Most of our extended family is far away or, well, passed away (still technically far away, I guess). We usually do a “friendsmas” with our close friends and their children. Many years we have hosted this event. I also like to give something nice to the kid’s teachers, the mailman, our pastors, and co-workers, etc. I honestly get excited over each and every one of those small gifts.
The only thing I think I could like more than giving presents is if I LIKED more people enough to buy them presents. (hashtag, the struggle.) That would certainly be a gift of a Christmas miracle.
My Christmas gift for someone special this year. This they’ll like it?