When I was a kid I always felt like I was meant for something great. Early on I had ambitions of becoming a big Hollywood starlet. I remember picking out a modest looking apartment building (who knows, it was probably actually someone’s million dollar row house) on a trip to New York City where I imagined myself at first struggling working as a humble waitress who against all odds eventually became Hollywood’s IT girl. Leonard DiCaprio was my imaginary future boyfriend at the time. SEE, I had big dreams!
That dream eventually died along with many others. I finally came to the terms with the fact that I was no one special. That is a hard truth, especially for a millenial.
There are lots of times that things didn’t go my way, grades, boyfriends, jobs, parties, friendships, that time I auditioned for the Real World… you get it. And despite the fact that I am funny, encouraging, smart, don’t smell, AND I never give television spoilers, it’s hard for me to make friends. I have actually wondered if everyone really is hanging out without me. (Are you, btw?) Some of that is hyperbole, but whatever. It seemed like no one ever saw me, even the Lord.
A few weeks ago I filled out on a whim a form to be a part of this little thing for this writer I kinda adored. I figured nothing would come of it. Earlier this week a message arrived in my inbox that didn’t look familiar. I almost haphazardly deleted it but something told me to open it instead. I was STUNNED, absolutely SHOCKED, to read that I had been selected to be a part of this thing, that thing being the #forthelove Launch Team for Jen Hatmaker’s latest book.
Basically, I get to read the book early, write some fun stuff about it, interact with the other 499 people selected (out of 5,000!) and the amazing community that has developed from this experience, and some more neat stuff. Being selected is very cool in itself, but I already have so many words to say about the book, but I can’t yet. It will come though!
From what I read so far, and what it has done for my heart, I can’t deny that the Lord designed this opportunity with me in mind. There is healing, and comfort, and joy again. For the first time in a really long time, I know that He sees me, which means that he has always seen me.
So let me encourage you with that, He sees you too.